Lessons in Stillness

These past couple of weeks have been really tough.

My energy was severely low, I was sick, and I felt like I was struggling through muck.

The full moon and a coaching session cleared the “muck” but only amplified the emptiness. I felt like an empty shell, not knowing what to do or what to say.

Eventually I gave in to the stillness. Accepting that, yes, this too is a place where I’m meant to be. And hey, it’s another great learning experience for my upcoming workshop “Dancing in the Unknown”. I was in the unknown alright. I had no idea where I was or where I was going.

I suppose I had forgotten what it was like to spend time with myself alone with no agenda. It felt weird, awkward. And I was bored out of my mind to tell you the truth. Being sick left me with no energy or motivation.

So there I sat, day after day, not doing much of anything, sleeping to my heart’s content, and wondering if life will ever be the same again.

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Luckily my energy suddenly (finally!) returned and I snapped back into reality – coincidentally (or not) right on the day of the new moon.

With my mind back in working order, I reflected on what had happened and what I learned. This odd couple weeks of nothingness left me feeling rested, clear, stress-free, and cared for.

It made me see just how little I knew about being truly still.

You see… I had spent years in overwhelm and spent all of 2014, during my coaching training, working through the stories, beliefs, and fears that held me there. Last year was my first year free from overwhelm; but my hands and mind were still always busy.

Being thrusted into this long span of stillness made me see that there’s still a piece missing from my journey out of overwhelm.

Overwhelm had been conquered, yes, but now there was something to claim. Space. Freedom. Truly connecting.

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It’s time that I connect even deeper with myself. To gift myself pockets of that alone time every day without an agenda. It is, after all, the only way to build a relationship.

And with Valentine’s Day coming up, it’s the perfect gift I could give or receive: quality time with the one person I am destined to spend eternity with – myself.







Dancing in the Unknown ClassPS Registration for my upcoming workshop “Dancing in the Unknown” is now open!

Join me, as we step into the unknown, use creativity as a tool to expand our comfort zone with uncertainty, listen deeply within, learn to navigate our fear, and start to build trust in our inner knowing… Trust in ourselves.

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How Pinkie Pie Became My Word of the Year…

As I sat with my intentions for 2016 and worked through the process of finding my word of the year (using a brilliant workbook my dear friend Becky Cavender so lovingly created HERE), I began to see words such as love, connection, simplicity, free, silly, playful, open… but there wasn’t one word which stood out from the rest.

They all felt true. But I knew, trying to embody a handful of words is no easy task, especially when you’re looking for simplicity!

So I put it aside for the day to let it incubate. But every time I would return to it… I would just see images of Pinkie Pie.

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What!? You’re not focusing enough. I’ll try again later.

And again, images of Pinkie Pie.

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Seriously?

A few days later, my friend Bridgette asks, “Have you discovered your word yet?”

“I’m still pondering,” I replied. “Every time I try to work on it, an image of Pinkie Pie comes up!” I laugh.

I was laughing, at the silliness of it all – that I couldn’t focus, that I kept getting bombarded with silly, childish things, that I was having trouble pinning down my word. I expected her to laugh along with me, to shrug it off as I had been and say Oh, it’ll come to you.

But being the wise woman she is, instead she replied, “You know, horse is a symbol for intuition and freedom.”

“Time for musing!” she says.

It shocked me. It got me thinking…

I’ve been yearning for “freedom” for years now.

I’ve been learning year after year, month after month, that I should listen to my intuition more.

I recalled a scene from My Little Pony where Pinkie Pie expressed her intuitive, perhaps even psychic abilities…

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Whoa.. There’s more to her than just parties and balloons. On the surface she looks shallow… not valued.

WAIT… did I just say that? Does that mean I truly don’t believe in my own words, that there’s value in play and joy?

I had to sit with it. I’ve been so disconnected from joy this past year. I feel the heaviness weighing on my heart.

YES.

It’s time to lighten up.

It’s time to giggle and play – to remember the silly little “CooCooNut” my parents so lovingly called me as a child.

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There IS value in simplicity, in the child-like nature of wonder and joy.

And as I softened into this idea of actually using “Pinkie Pie” as my word of the year, I realized…

Yes, this does encompass all that I yearn for this year –


Love, Connection, Silly, Playful, Free, Simplicity, Open, JOY.


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And now

I’m only left wondering… What other truths has my heart tried to show me that I’ve dismissed?






(My Little Pony images copyrighted by their respective
owners, found HERE, HERE, and HERE.)

Squam ~ through the Eyes of an Introvert

If you’ve been following me on Instagram, you may have noticed that I snuck away to an art retreat this past weekend.

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Ever since I’ve returned home, I’ve been trying to find words to describe my experience. But, there are none that will fully capture the mixed emotions and magic that flowed through me. All I can do is try to share my story as it unfolded…

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Squam Dreams

As an introvert and someone who’s recovering from childhood shyness, stepping into this experience was SCARY. Sure, I’ve had practice showing up through You-Tube videos and over the phone doing life coaching – but this was IN PERSON and with people I’ve never met. This was the very first time I was leaping with faith to meet new people and show up as the “real me”.

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The sheer amount of people at Squam was overwhelming at first. Stepping into the dining hall almost had me spiraling back to my high school days of overwhelm and isolation. But luckily, our first meal had assigned seats. And every person I encountered greeted me with a smile and was genuinely interested in getting to know me.

I was trying to keep an open mind. To stay open to whatever experience wanted to unfold for me. But for the first day or so, I started to think this wasn’t for me. I was telling myself that I would do better with a smaller retreat. One where you’re with the same people for the whole duration. One where I am forced to be with the same group so I wouldn’t have to be thrown into the unknown so often. But of course, that was only fear talking. I was stretching my comfort zone.

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I was grateful that it was easy to honor my introverted nature throughout the trip. We were surrounded by fresh air, trees, water, animals, and pockets of quiet. Any time I felt overwhelmed, I was able to slip away to the woods or my cabin to find peace.

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I continued to stay open, and allow myself to have the best experience possible; even though I was feeling that I would probably never do this again. As time went on, my ego mind began to realize that this environment was different than any I had ever experienced before. There was an overall vibe of inclusion and love and understanding that was refreshing and comforting. The community held each other up like we were all long lost sisters. There was no exclusion, or judgement, or drama – there was just love and excitement and openness.

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And slowly I began to form bonds with the women that I saw most often – those that shared a cabin with me and the others nearby. The world of Squam began to shrink – in a good way. I was no longer lost in a sea of strangers. The closeness and connection I was seeking began to unfold naturally within the expansiveness. But it wouldn’t have happened if I had closed down, if I had run away in fear, if I had given in to the thoughts that I did not belong there.

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The magic and transformation I felt within has no words, for I still don’t even understand it fully myself. “It was amazing!” is all I can muster when someone asks me how it went.

I laughed, I cried, I connected, I withdrew, I created, I shopped, I danced, I painted, I ate, I hugged, I hiked, I swam, I stretched, I grew… I experienced what it was like to live in a world run by creativity and love.

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And now that it’s over, do I feel like I would do it again?

OH, HELL YES!!

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With Love,




PS I’ve been growing a lot these past few weeks… it’s been quite an adventure! I need to sit with it and let it all sink in. But in the meantime, my secret artist collaboration is coming up quick and I can no longer keep it a secret! I’ll be spilling the beans on Monday. I started this project months ago, and of course, had no idea the shifts I’d be going through now – but it’s a welcome distraction and something that will begin to ground me. I can’t wait to share it with all of you!



(special thanks to @ondakay, @pagesargissonjewelry, @gofetchgretch, and @fifieldhouse for the amazing photos!)

Where It All Began

Oooh I’ve been waiting for this day for quite a few weeks now!!

As I mentioned before, I’ve been reflecting a lot these past few months. And within that, I discovered a new facet to my story: My journey of quitting my creative biz and starting anew was not just a story about a simple career change… It was about a huge life transformation.

This my friend, is where it all started (IT being: this big shift happening in me now. The deepening of my creative practice. The deepening of my soul)…

My story began well before my coaching. Well before I discovered art journaling.

It began when it all fell apart.

It began out of necessity to save my soul.

And this is the story I share in the latest release of Phoenix Soul Magazine.

I hope you check out this incredibly inspiring magazine and witness my beginning. You can grab your copy of September’s release, Catharsis here: http://bit.ly/phoenixsoul



With Love,




Full Moon Soul Date

The full moon was last weekend. And no, I’m not usually the type that pays much attention to these sorts of things… although perhaps now I will, because what I experienced over these past few days was nothing short of magical.

They say the full moon is a time for releasing that which no longer serves you… and oooh boy, was something telling me to let go! Out of nowhere, I began to get bombarded with messages all telling me the same thing:

It’s time to let go of your old ways of doing things.

It’s time to shed the cocoon and grow.

It all started with some simple nudges from Connie Solera, to take some time to reflect and to speak to the soul of my business because I was really feeling flustered and out of sorts. When I agreed to slow down and really listen… that’s when the messages started to appear.

First, through my daily written journal. Then through a conversation in our Ignite class. A book appeared at my doorstep: Meet Your Soul. An unexpected message from my psychic friend Bridgette who had a feeling that a shift was happening in my biz. An out-of-the-blue free business coaching call. A link to Mystic Mamma where they share that the energetic themes for September is FAITH and TRUST: “The container of our lives needs to be bigger to accommodate this evolution and we cannot hold ourselves back with our fears, limited thinking and need for control.”

(And that’s the short list!)

But what hit me hardest of all, was what I experienced the morning of the full moon. I was feeling tangled. Unsure of what was going on. I needed to run away. So in the early morning light, I grabbed some art supplies and notebooks then snuck away to the beach for some quiet alone time. Little did I know what awaited me…


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And through all of these messages, I’ve been getting really clear on some things. A shift IS happening. In my life, as well as in my business. Not a major shift. But more like a re-alignment. You can read more about it HERE where I posted a bit of my thought process through this experience.

But WOW. No words can fully describe what I’ve been experiencing these last few weeks. Big things are coming. I can feel it.



With Love,