As I sat with my intentions for 2016 and worked through the process of finding my word of the year (using a brilliant workbook my dear friend Becky Cavender so lovingly created HERE), I began to see words such as love, connection, simplicity, free, silly, playful, open… but there wasn’t one word which stood out from the rest.
They all felt true. But I knew, trying to embody a handful of words is no easy task, especially when you’re looking for simplicity!
So I put it aside for the day to let it incubate. But every time I would return to it… I would just see images of Pinkie Pie.
What!? You’re not focusing enough. I’ll try again later.
And again, images of Pinkie Pie.
A few days later, my friend Bridgette asks, “Have you discovered your word yet?”
“I’m still pondering,” I replied. “Every time I try to work on it, an image of Pinkie Pie comes up!” I laugh.
I was laughing, at the silliness of it all – that I couldn’t focus, that I kept getting bombarded with silly, childish things, that I was having trouble pinning down my word. I expected her to laugh along with me, to shrug it off as I had been and say Oh, it’ll come to you.
But being the wise woman she is, instead she replied, “You know, horse is a symbol for intuition and freedom.”
“Time for musing!” she says.
It shocked me. It got me thinking…
I’ve been yearning for “freedom” for years now.
I’ve been learning year after year, month after month, that I should listen to my intuition more.
I recalled a scene from My Little Pony where Pinkie Pie expressed her intuitive, perhaps even psychic abilities…
Whoa.. There’s more to her than just parties and balloons. On the surface she looks shallow… not valued.
WAIT… did I just say that? Does that mean I truly don’t believe in my own words, that there’s value in play and joy?
I had to sit with it. I’ve been so disconnected from joy this past year. I feel the heaviness weighing on my heart.
It’s time to lighten up.
It’s time to giggle and play – to remember the silly little “CooCooNut” my parents so lovingly called me as a child.
There IS value in simplicity, in the child-like nature of wonder and joy.
And as I softened into this idea of actually using “Pinkie Pie” as my word of the year, I realized…
Yes, this does encompass all that I yearn for this year –
Love, Connection, Silly, Playful, Free, Simplicity, Open, JOY.
I’m only left wondering… What other truths has my heart tried to show me that I’ve dismissed?