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Dear ugly page,
I know you didn’t mean to cause such turmoil. But as you emerged within my journal, I was faced with so many thoughts and emotions that almost brought me to tears.
I guess I was secretly hoping that you would turn into something beautiful… something that I could look back on and smile, something I could share with the world. Because when you didn’t, I was flooded with disappointment and frustration. I began to worry, “Why can’t I create something I love?”
That’s when it hit me – I was putting conditions on my love for you … when all you’ve ever done was bring me joy, and insight, and relief.
What right do I have to withhold my love for you when all you did was become who you were meant to be?
What right do I have to tell you who you should or should not be?
You were created as an expression of my Soul. You are what needed to be released, what needed to be born. You are evidence that I have the magic to create something from nothing. You are the evidence of creativity flowing through me. You are the evidence of me honoring ME.
So I thank you.
I thank you for having the courage to be who you are without fear or shame, so that I may learn to do the same – flaws and all.
I thank you for reminding me to enjoy the process of creating, releasing, and expressing; and to relish every moment I have to share with you.
I thank you for showing me that there is much more in life beyond my thoughts, beyond my ego; and that there are discoveries to be made around every corner.
And I thank you for unapologetically showing up when you knew you weren’t what I was hoping for, to remind me to celebrate where I am today instead of always looking to the future. I thank you for being that physical reminder of where I am right here and now, so that I may look back on my growth as a creative, as a woman, as a human, as a Soul.
You have given me all of this and more. So I thank you.
P.S. Perhaps you are beautiful after all.