These past couple of weeks have been really tough.
My energy was severely low, I was sick, and I felt like I was struggling through muck.
The full moon and a coaching session cleared the “muck” but only amplified the emptiness. I felt like an empty shell, not knowing what to do or what to say.
Eventually I gave in to the stillness. Accepting that, yes, this too is a place where I’m meant to be. And hey, it’s another great learning experience for my upcoming workshop “Dancing in the Unknown”. I was in the unknown alight. I had no idea where I was or where I was going.
I suppose I had forgotten what it was like to spend time with myself alone with no agenda. It felt weird, awkward. And I was bored out of my mind to tell you the truth. Being sick left me with no energy or motivation.
So there I sat, day after day, not doing much of anything, sleeping to my heart’s content, and wondering if life will ever be the same again.
Luckily my energy suddenly (finally!) returned and I snapped back into reality – coincidentally (or not) right on the day of the new moon.
With my mind back in working order, I reflected on what had happened and what I learned. This odd couple weeks of nothingness left me feeling rested, clear, stress-free, and cared for.
It made me see just how little I knew about being truly still.
You see… I had spent years in overwhelm and spent all of 2014, during my coaching training, working through the stories, beliefs, and fears that held me there. Last year was my first year free from overwhelm; but my hands and mind were still always busy.
Being thrusted into this long span of stillness made me see that there’s still a piece missing from my journey out of overwhelm.
Overwhelm had been conquered, yes, but now there was something to claim. Space. Freedom. Truly connecting.
It’s time that I connect even deeper with myself. To gift myself pockets of that alone time every day without an agenda. It is, after all, the only way to build a relationship.
And with Valentine’s Day coming up, it’s the perfect gift I could give or receive: quality time with the one person I am destined to spend eternity with – myself.
Join me, as we step into the unknown, use creativity as a tool to expand our comfort zone with uncertainty, listen deeply within, learn to navigate our fear, and start to build trust in our inner knowing… Trust in ourselves.